Mistakes... Their a part of growing up.... Their a part of learning.... They help shape who we become.... All I know, is that the mistakes I have made are going to make me a smarter person.
I'm tired of regretting my decisions, even though the thing that haunts me the worst wasn't entirely on me, i still feel like its my fault... and I hate that I feel this way...
the one thing i wanted to be super special was the one thing i carelessly gave away! My first kiss should have been a beautiful and romantic occasion... Not a forced make out session where the guy conducted an archeological excavation in my mouth... (and for the record for all you boys reading this... When a girl says no and that she wants to go home about 50 times you shouldn't force or coerce them into doing things they don't want to do)
Now losing my first kiss isn't the only mistake I've made... Theres been a couple... But I've learned from them... and even though I still get tempted to go throw up every now and again I now know that I shouldn't do it... Ive learned from it... And I've learned from all the other mistakes I have made... all except one..
The question I ask myself every day is Could I have changed the situation? Could i have stood up to my beliefs and said no more times that i did? Should I feel guilty?
The answer is that no I couldn't have changed the situation! No i couldn't have said no more times! And no i shouldn't feel guilty! I've learned that not only should I accept and learn from everything bad that I do but I should also accept and learn from the bad things that happen to me.... Mistakes can be made but they can also happen even if you don't want them to... You just need to learn from them... Good or Bad!
And thats what I'm going to do.... Now if I could only find a church were I can Confess... Just not face to face with the priest.... I don't have the guts to do that! lol!
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