Best Friends and 2010

This year I've lost and made many friends. And even though it sucked losing them, it was even better when i made them! This year i learned that you cant always trust your friends and that the ones you thought you never could trust are the ones that will always be there for you no matter what. I've had so much fun this year, and it was all because im my friends, both new and old.

This year i went to an Honor Society concert with my friends Kayla and Jenny. At that concert i met alot of new friends like Patricia, Katie, Emily and Rianna. We had tons of fun and we even met the boys! We also met Juat Kait and Ashlynn Huff! It was awesome and i made some cool new friends!

This Summer i went to Los Angeles for the first time ever with Kayla, Tiffany, and Jessica! I had sooo much fun! These girls are awesome! i had never met Jessica or Tiffany but they were awesome and i consider them awesome friends now! We went to a bunch of celebrity houses, the Teen Choice Awards, Dash, Santa Monica Pier, Hollywood Blvd and sooo much more! We even met miss Kim Kardashian! We had sooo much fun we want to go back soon!

I also Road tripped Texas to see my Favorite band The Jonas Brothers! i went with Kayla, Tiffany, Patricia, Emily, Berenice. Along the way i met a bucnh of new beautiful girls! Maddie, Juliana, Carolina, Steffi, Katie and sooooo many more! We went from San Antonio to Houston then to Dallas! It was an awesome weekend! I miss these girls soooo much!

Not only was this a great year to make great new friends! It was a year that my friendships with my true friends got stronger!

My besties Ale Natalie Ana and Bere got soooooooooooooo much closer this year! I literaly cannot live without therse girls! They are my loves and the other halfs of my hearts! i love you girls!! We have been though so much and we are gonna go through so much more!

i have so many friends that i love with all of my heart yall rock! Ari, Jenny, Jen, Jess, Victor, Brian, Christina, Aidee, Grecia, Evonna yall are awesome! <3 u!

2010 was an awesome year for friends and traveling!

Lets hope 2011 brings for friends and even more traveling!

Don't change who you are.

One of my friends also has a blog (she was an inspiration in me getting one) and every time she updates her blog I read it instantly. Today she wrote about something that really made me think. She wrote about bullying. My friend Jen was bullied really bad in high school. Reading her blog I remembered everything about high school. I remembered the things that would happen to her and I also remembered the things that happened to me. Even though what happened to me is no where near as bad as what happened to Jen, I still understand how badly she felt.

When I was in high school I got bullied for the way I looked and the people I hung out with, for the way I dressed and for the way I acted. I used to sing all day and all night. I used to wear whatever I wanted even though it wasn't always brand name clothes. I was super bubbly and loud and outgoing. I still am all these things. However for a time in school I was told by many people that I sounded like a dying horse so I made it a point to not sing anymore. They told me that I dressed like a Miley Cyrus wannabe so I started wearing simple outfits instead of extravagant ones. They told me I was loud and annoying so I became quiet and bearable. They would tell me I was fat and I went through a period of starving myself, taking pills, and throwing up. It wasn't until I realized the I shouldn't give a hoot about what people think about me. And the person who helped me realize that was my friend Jen.

Jen and I are actually really alike. But we have one major difference, She isn't afraid to always fight for what she wants, she isn't afraid to follow her dreams. I on the other hand am hesitant to jump into things. I admire Jen for everything she does. Even though she was the subject of horrible bullying she still persevered and is one of the most strong, amazing, and beautiful people i know. If it wasn't for her I can honestly say I would probably still be the quiet girl I made myself be.

Thanks to Jen I started to be myself again. I started to dress up for school. I started to sing all day even though I annoyed people to death.Ii started to talk loudly and annoyingly. And I even started to laugh super loud again because that's who I was and I didn't care if anyone laughed at me anymore.

After a while people just got used to it and started complimenting me on my outfits and hair and makeup and my voice instead of bashing me. To this day I still don't care what people think. I wore a hot pink jacket to the black and white ball and even though i got stared at like crazy I didn't care because I love pink! I cut my bangs in high school and I got them straight across my face when everyone had the side swept bangs and everyone thought I was weird and emo  but i loved them. I walked down the halls of high school and college with my high school musical bag and my Jonas brothers folders and my Hannah Montana pencils and i would get picked on but I didn't care! I used to quote harry potter and Twilight and Phantom of the opera and get looked at weird but I didn't care. I did and still love all those things.

Jen showed me that to be someone who gets what they want they have to do what they want and not care what anyone thinks. So I dedicate this blog to you Jen. You have helped me in so many ways and you don't even know it. I will never be able to repay you. Thank You for showing me that I could be me without me caring about what anyone thinks. You are an amazing person and I really look up to you.

Don't ever change Jen. You are strong. You made it through four years of hell and you lived. I truly believe you can make it through anything.

Sickmas!

I woke up this morning and i opened my gift and i got.... My new computer. And its sooo gorgeous!

but i also woke up sick :/... i have a head-ache ear-ache and stomach-ache

i hope everyone has an awesome xmas!

Happy Holidays :)

To peek or not to peek

Its Christmas Eve and in our family its tradition to wait until the next morning to give Santa time to get to our house.... so naturally i'm like dieing to start using my gift!!! lol. every year i get what i want..

One year i asked for the entire set of Harry Potter books and the Harry Potter Scene It Game and i remember when i see them carrying a big box and i felt to bad because i thought it wasn't what i had wanted. when they gave me the gift to open i was sooooo excited because that was the only thing i wanted...

When i asked for my iPod it was all i wanted since like forever and i would always ask for one but i would always get an mp3 and the Christmas they gave me my iPod i remember we were sitting in the living room and it was around 10:30 at night on the 24th and i had the most bored lifeless look on my face and my parents sent me to go get a blanket and when i came back my dad pulled the iPod  out of his shirt pocket and i burst into tears! Not only did they break the rules of waiting till the morning but they got me the best gift ever! and to this day my iPod is the most prized possession i have (besides my awesome voice of course ^.^)

and this year Ive asked for a computer and i have a feeling that i am sooo getting it!

I have the best parents in the whole wide world!!! :)

Holidays, Family, and Loneliness!

The holidays are right around the corner and it seems like everything is swirling around me... or should i say everyone. I feel like everyone is swirling around me but their not alone. Everyone is swirling as couples, which i am not a part of. I wish i was able to slow everyone from spinning and rip the couples apart, but i cant. Whenever these holidays come around i start to see everyone as a happy coulpe and i see myself as the only single girl in the world. The feeling of being so alone is not a good feeling. But oh well I cant do anything to make me getting a boyfriend go faster. All i can do is continue to wait for HIM<3 to hurry up and ask me to be his girlfriend already! Then again i need to find HIM<3.. and soon!

New Beginning

I used to be a completely different person. i used to be super bubbly and always thinking on the positive side and always thinking people were all great. But now i know that there isn't always a positive side and not everyone is a good person. I know that i shouldn't always be nice to the people who are mean to me. I'm still me just more mature. I used to be a huge Jonas Brothers fan but now I've grown older and they've faded into the back of my mind. I used to love to run around, jump, and play hide and seek but now I love to dress up and go out with friends. I've just matured alot recently and I know it's because I'm getting ready for my future. My future in San Antonio. So this blog is to my new beginning. To my new friendships. To my future successes. To Love everything else along the way! :)