live and learn

Mistakes... Their a part of growing up.... Their a part of learning.... They help shape who we become.... All I know, is that the mistakes I have made are going to make me a smarter person.

I'm tired of regretting my decisions, even though the thing that haunts me the worst wasn't entirely on me, i still feel like its my fault... and I hate that I feel this way...

the one thing i wanted to be super special was the one thing i carelessly gave away! My first kiss should have been a beautiful and romantic occasion... Not a forced make out session where the guy conducted an archeological excavation in my mouth... (and for the record for all you boys reading this... When a girl says no and that she wants to go home about 50 times you shouldn't force or coerce them into doing things they don't want to do)

Now losing my first kiss isn't the only mistake I've made... Theres been a couple... But I've learned from them... and even though I still get tempted to go throw up every now and again I now know that I shouldn't do it... Ive learned from it... And I've learned from all the other mistakes I have made... all except one..

The question I ask myself every day is Could I have changed the situation? Could i have stood up to my beliefs and said no more times that i did? Should I feel guilty?

The answer is that no I couldn't have changed the situation! No i couldn't have said no more times! And no i shouldn't feel guilty! I've learned that not only should I accept and learn from everything bad that I do but I should also accept and learn from the bad things that happen to me.... Mistakes can be made but they can also happen even if you don't want them to... You just need to learn from them... Good or Bad!

And thats what I'm going to do.... Now if I could only find a church were I can Confess... Just not face to face with the priest.... I don't have the guts to do that! lol!

I support!

What is normal? is there even a real thing that normality falls into? Can we even say that a person is normal, when there might not be a normal? And if there is a normal, is it really what the bible says it is?

Everyday Gays and Lesbians are bombarded with people telling them that they are abnormal. That they are not normal in the terms of the bible. Are they right or are they wrong? If they are right, why are they right? Is there wrong, then why are they wrong?

When people say they accept gays, but they still feel weird about what they are, are they really accepting them? Or are they just pretending to so they would be seen as close- minded people? When are people going to really accept Gay and Lesbians as normal people? Normal people who can fall in love with each other and can marry each other if they wanted.

(rant starts)

I have many gay friends and i fully support them! If they wanted to get married I would help them plan the most amazing wedding ever! I would throw them a gorgeous bridal shower (naughty of course ;p lol). I will always support them! But some people wouldn't. and that baffles me. how someone can say that in the bible it says that god doesn't have gays are being improper baffles me even more. Some of those people who preach the religious aspect haven't been to church in years! I know an uncle who is against Gay Rights because it doesn't say in the bible that they should be right! I have one thing to say to him,it also says in the commandments that you shouldn't cheat on your wife, so he is also "NOT RIGHT" and he is also going "against god"!

I was talking to a girl once while we where driving to mickey d's. She mentioned that she lost her mp3 at church camp. I said that maybe they stoled it. She said no, its church camp. I said if a priest can rape a little boy, im sure that someone in  church camp can steal an mp3. She said well theres gay priests so i guess they can steal it. I said i think a priest raping a child is worse than a priest being gay. She said well it doesn't say in the bible that you can be gay. My mouth dropped open. I was so pissed I wanted to tell her to get the FUCK outta my truck and walk her ass to wherever she needed to go! She was basically saying that the priest being gay was WORSE than a priest raping a child!! How can people be sooo close minded!! Sooo dumb!! This is just baffling to me!

I think that people have the right to believe whatever they want. But when they start to insult other people for what they believe in and what they practice, thats when i think they draw the line. If people like this girl or my uncle are considered normal, i think we are in deep shit! and yes i am criticizes people for what they believe in because they cant accept what i believe in, but, In my defense i am not the one who is cheating or insinuating that its better to rape a child than to be gay.... I guess everyone has a right to there own opinion. I just think that people need to be open minded.... (Rant now over)

Some of the most religious people are also some of the biggest sinners!

I'm PRO GAY RIGHTS!! And I believe that they should be able to fall in LOVE and get MARRIED to whomever they want to! And everyone who thinks otherwise can say hello to my little friends called my knuckles!